to bead or not to bead...

packing sucks! ohmigod.
i am so bad at it. I've pared down my clothes as much as possible and they "fit" in my big ass walmart suitcase (which i love, don't get me wrong) but man. I packed a little differently this time from last time, this time bringing less pants and more leggings and a couple of skirts. the problem is the food thing. i'm planning on buying more food on the road and not eating out as much so i have a small duffel that was meant to hold my food and my frying pan and my beads, and hopefully my shoes but it is looking way too small. i mean, towards the end of tour what I have was what most people had, but at the the beginning? it's going to be an issue i can tell.

I'm happy with the clothing, and i'm not changing it. but now the dilemma. do i I bring the beads or do I not? honestly bead crochet has been all i've done of late and i love doing it. i can do it all the time. once they are strung it is wicked fun just to sit there and crochet. problem is beads take up room. i've tried two different ways of organizing them and neither is really the best. i don't know what to do. very annoying. i really want to. but part of me says it's a stupid idea.
last tour i had a significant amount of down time where I could bead and stuff but I don't know how this tour is going to be. i'm assuming busier but that could be me being cynical. we will see i geuss. i'll let you know all tomorrow what i decide. until then... im heading to bed and hopefully by the morning i will have found clarity. and my mind... or at least some of it.

so the time between jobs is quickly coming to an end. it's amazing how quickly a month can go by. i had so many things i planned on doing/should have done that are nowhere near. oh well. life goes. on. I need to start packing. which is goign to be interesting seeing as my room is a mess. a vile mess. lol. have i unpacked from camp? nope. have i worn pants in 4 months? not really. so i don't even know what fits/i don't want to pack any. it's an issue. seeing as pants are kind of important in theatre. tech. i'm goign ot see how much i can get off wearing leggings and long shirts and t-shirts etc.

i'm irritable today. probably because I don't want to do much and I'm not sure how amped I am about leaving home/starting this new job. we'll see. hopefully it will be good.

so i haven't updated in way too long. i need to work on keeping this more up to date. maybe i'll make it a resolution to be a daily thing.

i'm currently in boston's logan airport waiting for my 7 am flight to orlando to meet up with 9 of my amazing camp counselor co workers from this summer for 5 days to go to disney and enjoy the florida goodness. It was a really spontaneous decision for me which is rare when it comes to trips, because i love to have each little detail planned out to the minute. it's an ocd thing. i get anxious when i'm travelling. it can be a problem, i like to know every detail of every moment of every day. i have no idea what i'm doing. no idea where i'm sleeping (exact details) it's going to be an amazing romp! and I packed the lightest i think i ever have in my whole life and i'm really really proud of myself; 1 bag (21" upright rolling!) and a pillow and blanket and backpack so good. and nohting is crammed into a plastic bag. go me.

what else.

as some of you know i worked at kingsley pines summer camp all summer and it was, without a doubt the best summer of my life thus far. there are no words to describe how amazing it was and all the amazing campers i had the pleasure of meeting and the incredible counselors and staff i got to know and become friends with. being out camp sucks. there's no longer food cooked for me, a bell to tell me when it's time to do something else or the ability to dress up like a character from dr seuss or disney or history or a pirate... i mean, i could do the dress up bit but it would be a lot of work and i'd look kind of ridiculous not to mention that once i started i wouldn't be able to stop and i would have way more clothes than is necessary. hahah. i digress.

im just hanging loose and easy until sept 29th when i go on tour with chamber theatre company which should be great. then come january im thinking about bouncing around to visit people then 80-98% sure of moving to nyc or the nyc vicinity. and if not there portland oregon or burlington. so there's that a very brief run down of what's going on right now. woo hoo...

may i suggest this is the best part of you life.